Spiritual Contemplations for those who serve the Lord |
Last month’s article, the first part of this topic, included an introduction to the problem and danger of spiritual slackness on a servant’s life. The two main reasons mentioned previously were: 1. Lack of love for God. 2. Loss or Deformation of the goal This article discusses some other obvious reasons: Forgetting or Forsaking Repentance Repentance is a perpetual life fortified with the spirit of mortification, contrition and remorse before God, accompanied by perpetual remembrance of one’s weaknesses and feeling of utter need for grace, protection of the Holy Spirit and God’s defense. Despite the forgiveness procured for his renowned sin and the assurance granted by God through Nathan, “So David said to Nathan, 'I have sinned against the Lord.' And Nathan said to David, 'The Lord also has put away your sin; you shall not die.'” (2 Samuel 12:13). David continued to remember his sin and weaknesses saying, “For I acknowledge my transgressions, and my sin is always before me” (Psalm 51:3), hoping for repentance, contrition, alertness and steadfastness in order not to fall again or lose his spiritual fervor. An assertion of this concept is St. Anthony’s favorable quote “if we forget our sins, God will remind us of them. If we remember our sins, God will disregard them.” Hence, it is dangerous to lose emotional sensitivity to self scrutiny as well as to the need for self reprimand. It has become essential for us to renew the feelings of repentance through atoning prayers as the ones listed in the Agpeya “Yes, Lord, grant us in that Hour to be without fear, anxiety or condemnation; and do not judge us according to our iniquities” (The Absolution of the Midnight Prayers). It is hazardous to enter into a spiritual comfortable zone that leads to feeling rich and self satisfied with our spirituality. All these are deluded and deluding feelings against which the Holy Book or Revelations warns us saying, “Because you say, ‘I am rich, have become wealthy, and have need of nothing’—and do not know that you are wretched, miserable, poor, blind, and naked—I counsel you to buy from Me gold refined in the fire, that you may be rich; and white garments, that you may be clothed, that the shame of your nakedness may not be revealed; and anoint your eyes with eye salve, that you may see” (Revelation 3:17-18). It is good to recite St. Makarious' words, “Blessed is the one who sticks to Repentance until he meets the Lord.” It is strange to see people leave themselves for long periods without repentance, self search or confession. Thus the required measuring norms of self analysis will eventually lose accuracy. As a result the person will continue to do wrong, taking refuge in excuses, and justifications to errors in order to absolve the self. All these are dangerous slimy ways by Satan that lead to spiritual apathy. Loss of Discipleship A life of discipleship assists us in becoming quickly aware of the precipice and danger of gradual spiritual weakness. Adopting discipleship willingly and submissively will provide supportive and protective counseling and advice that will safeguard against slackness and the drifting away from principles. A perpetual life of discipleship can be likened to a censor full of glowingly ignited coal waiting to be fanned and incense to be added so that the coal may remain hot and the incense filling the spirit with the sweet smell of the expensive perfume of repentance. How odd it is to see a servant rejecting discipleship because his ego has been quieted with the honor of teaching. To such servants, St. James says, “My brethren, let not many of you become teachers, knowing that we shall receive a stricter judgment. For we all stumble in many things. If anyone does not stumble in word, he is a perfect man, able also to bridle the whole body” (James 3:1-2). Discipleship is a powerful weapon against spiritual dryness. Superficiality of Worship It is dry ritualistic worship void of spirit, satisfied with to-the-letter performance and mere external movements without experiencing the fervor and awe of grace. Such type of worship creates boredom and weariness. This in turn brings about repulsion and rebellion against religious environment, spiritual values and literally all the corners of worship. Therapeutic practices for this type of spiritual sluggishness:
Appearances and Egoism The self is a big hindrance before spiritual growth. A servant might be tempted with the thought that he/she is indispensably important in church and that without them service would not advance, having forgotten that from stones God can get sons to Abraham and that he had chosen his disciples from common uneducated fishermen to make them fishers of men. A very clear example of God’s preferences is what He did with Elijah after his victory. For after he had killed the prophets of the Baal, God told him “Also you shall anoint Jehu the son of Nimshi as king over Israel. And Elisha the son of Shaphat of Abel Meholah you shall anoint as prophet in your place” (1 Kings 19:16). It seems that God wanted to exempt Elijah from the danger of feeling great in his own eyes. Likewise, St. Paul was given a thorn in his flesh so that he might not grow conceited because of the many revelations. We, also, if we live with God’s word as the Holy Bible says, we will arrive at implementing the words of St. Gregory’s the Great, “When you read the Word with awe, the soul will wake up to its hidden folds. Then a sword of sorrow and pinches from the conscience will pierce it leaving it with no choice but to weep and wash its sins in its tears.” …“Look into yourself to see God united in you… If you get to see Him, snatch yourself from your sight to see God alone living all the time in you.” So the essence of this truth is that you see in yourself…snatch yourself from your sight. Contrary to the life of appearances and superficiality is a life of depth, circumspection and closeness to God in the depths of the heart. That is the requirement for expelling all spiritual dryness. An outward person finds joy in external movements and appearances because this is his only measuring stick for service and activities. On the other hand, an in-depth person seeks his own salvation and that of others. * Adapted from HGBY monthly clergical spouse letters - September 2013
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